I actually wrote this past month!

I know, I’m shocked too.

For most of the month I had the urge and desire to write but anytime I sat down to actually do it, nothing happened. I kept feeling inspired and ready, but then I’d do anything but writing.

Then I heard a song on the radio.

Everything I Wanted by Billie Eilish and I just knew that was my MC, McKenna’s song. I listened to it on repeat a lot. I kind of view it as her inner thoughts, the things she doesn’t share with the world.

So then I sat down and finished reading through what I already received to familiarize myself with the world again.

Then I heard another song only a couple days later and it was as if I was hearing Connor speak…well sing.

If We Never Met by John K. Mainly the chorus of this song is what spoke to me, and it’s pretty upbeat for Connor but oh my god it captures him.

I’ve been trying and failing for years to find songs that remind me of my MCs and within a four or five day span, I find both.

I dove back into revisions and got stuck again. This chapter is proving very hard to work on and I think it’s because the chapter before it isn’t right. So that’s my plan for today – to go back and see if I can finally figure it all out.

Instead of wallowing about being stuck, I went back to a scene I’d been working on – a potentially alternate finale scene. Basically the same stuff happens in the scene that’s currently in my WIP, it just happens slightly different and the emotional weights are altered. I’ve really enjoyed working on it, and it definitely still needs some tweaking. Once I’m happy with it, I’ll read the two scenes side by side and pick the one I like better. It’ll also depend on revisions because the scenes have vastly different feels to them.

I’m hoping by the end of March I’m completely done with revisions and I can send off this WIP to a few CP’s for some feedback. Then hopefully I don’t have to completely rewrite my book. The next steps are stating to feel really real and tangible and that’s terrifying…and exciting.

I’m already looking forward to sitting back down with a cup of coffee and diving into my WIP today. I love that feeling.