Okay, so new year, same WIP.
Honestly, I feel like until I actually start writing again these posts are kind of useless, but here we go.
I barely worked on my SF WIP in 2020 and I barely wrote. I was constantly plagued by shiny new ideas and I’d write a few thousand words and then grow bored or uninspired.
I couldn’t figure out how I was stuck in my SF WIP, so every time I opened the Word doc, I’d just stare at it uselessly. So I didn’t touch it.
Then I started working full time and had no energy. This is a lame excuse, I know. Being stuck and having no energy and no drive to work on it – I didn’t.
Then in October I had a breakthrough. I got unstuck, but then it was NaNoWriMo and I still couldn’t work on it, and work picked up to insane levels.
Then I didn’t write at all in December.
So now, here we are. I’d hoped to have already finished my revisions but work still hasn’t calmed down. So, all I was able to do this month was (once again) reread my SF WIP, reinsert a scene I thought I was going to have to delete, and move another scene towards the end of the WIP.
I realized that the emotional weights were wrong and that I was forcing my MC to act out of character, which in turn caused me to get stuck.
Now, I get to keep one of my favorite scenes, which is emotionally on brand for where she currently is in this story, and I feel excited to work on it again.
So, while I don’t have any big announcements, I do have a smallish update. Hell, the fact that I opened the Word doc feels monumental. If I’m being honest, the lack of desire to write has hovered over me since November of 2019. That was when we had to put my dog down and it mentally fucked with me. The desire to be creative just wasn’t there. I just wanted to read and to get lost in other’s stories because it meant that I didn’t have to do anything but enjoy.
But I’m finally starting to feel creative again – and these bursts usually come during work and I’m unable to do anything about them. But the fact that I even have a desire to sit down and write – like actually write and it just stare at the screen…it feels huge.
Plus, all the reading I’ve done in the last year, really, really makes me want to finally finish my WIP and take the next step. I want people to fall in love with my characters.
Next month I fully intend on knocking out the majority, if not all of these revisions. But I’m going to be kind to myself. I have no idea what work is going to look like, and while I’m not having to stay late these days, it’s still draining.
So, my goal is this – just work on my SF WIP.
Do more than just opening the document and rereading it.
I love the world and the characters and it’s high time I get this book done so people can read it.