Well, I didn’t get 4 chapters revised. I did get 1.5 revised, so I’m still calling it a win.
I don’t want to make excuses, but I’ve been so low energy this month that by the time I have time to sit down and write, all I want to do is nothing. Absolutely, blissfully nothing.
But I got a chapter and a half done so seriously, I’m calling it a win.
I think I might have been too ambitious to say I was going to do what basically equated to a chapter a week.
I feel like that shouldn’t even been too ambitious, that I should be able to carve out time to be able to revise a chapter in a week – but I legit had no energy. I’m honestly getting really frustrated with myself – which I know doesn’t help. I want to work on this damn WIP. I really do. I want to be creative and use writing as an outlet again, but it just feels like it doesn’t fit in my schedule anymore. It feels like I’m being forced to prioritize things that I don’t want to have to prioritize. I’m so tired of work being a constant stressor in my life – it’s one of the biggest energy draining and just overall exhausting things I have to deal with. I come home from work and I just want to sleep. I just want to close the world out for a bit and not be bothered by anything. And then I feel guilty for taking a much-needed nap, instead of doing something productive like – writing. But when I say, I’m pretty much useless without a nap after work – I mean it. I would end up just staring at the screen, brain blank until I dozed off.
But I did a chapter and a half, and I have to celebrate the small things. It’s a chapter and a half that wasn’t revised before. So that’s progress.
I love the fact that I was able to put back in this big action scene that I loved. It was so much fun fine tuning and revising it to make it flow better with the current plot. My MC, McKenna really shines in the scene and makes everyone who cares about her worry for her safety. But it’s so in character for her that it’s kind of cleared this fog from my mind in regard to her character. For a while I was really stuck and unable to get her to do anything I wanted. Now we’re synced up again and it feels like smooth sailing.
Even after all these years, I still very much love these characters.
I revised a chapter and a half, and I’m going to shoot for that again.
In the meantime, here’s a little snippet from my SF WIP – and one of my favorite chapters in this book. Enjoy!