Well, I think I’m stuck again.

I’ve hit a wall.

I know what needs to happen – I’m just struggling to get there.

What I want to write isn’t working, and I just keep rewriting the same things over and over again.

I’m getting nowhere.

I’m frustrated. Which helps no one, least of all me.

I wanted to come on here – to this post – and brag about how I knocked out another chapter!

I’ve been staring and rewriting the same scene for like – half the month.

I’m annoyed.

I think I know what’s wrong – my MC is acting out of character again. Not as much as before, but just enough that everything I try writing just doesn’t hit where I need it to. It’s trying to build something from opposite sides of the bank, and when they meet in the middle, it’s like an inch off, so things don’t connect.

I have a whole Word doc dedicated to all the freaking rewrites of this scene, but I think I might just need to scrap the whole thing, and potentially the scene before it, and start fresh. Whole, brand new words. Because just backtracking and making changes isn’t helping me. I’m literally just repeating myself and getting nowhere.

So, I think that’s what I’m going to do this weekend. I’ll copy everything over into a Word doc for safe keeping, and then just start fresh. I’ll probably write it in a separate Word doc as well – and maybe even hand write some of it out. That usually helps get me past blocks like this.

On a slightly separate note – all I want to do is draft.

Draft what?

I have no idea.

But I want to draft.

I think this is because revising is stressing me the hell out since I can’t figure out how to get from point A to point B. So, I just want to write, to create something brand new. Probably also to remind myself that this is fun, and that I love it. Because right now, I want nothing to do with it.

For May, I’m hoping for at least one chapter – hell, I’m hoping I can finish this current chapter and get myself unstuck. I doubt work is ever going to die down, and now that it’s getting hot, I’m going to be even more wiped after work than normal. But I’m going to do what I can, and freaking finish this book one chapter at a time.